ugh, i am sitting around the house, feeling kind of sad and lonely and mopey, listening to 90s music and putting on brown lipstick and too much eyeliner. somehow, in my head, this all adds up to “i should go shoe shopping.” someone please come over and hit me over the head before i end up with unwearable suede peep toe booties or something equally ludicrous.
petition to make there be fewer states because doing a nationwide analysis of anything by state is just ridiculous, how am i supposed to put 51 lines on a graph or 51 separate graphs, that is ridiculous, 10 would be much more reasonable. also if they could be roughly the same size so i could just compare enrollment numbers without having to normalize them by population for them to make any kind of sense, that would be great, thanks for your consideration of this important issue.
emailing me with content i might like to feature on the website i help run - for a website that has not been active since 2011, that has a clear and unequivocal “this is the final post for this website” post on it - is one thing. you’ve done some google search, you’re sending it to everyone. lazy, but whatever.
sending three (3) personalized follow up emails, though, is another thing. you are putting time and effort into this communication - but clearly haven’t bothered to take even a cursory look at the website you’re pitching to. WHAT ARE YOU DOING WITH YOUR TIME?
when C is out of town, i let things fall apart a little bit. clothes pile up on the floor. meals are eaten on the couch out of bowls, instead of eating from a plate at the table. clutter accumulates.
now that i am also sick, we have gone down another level. which means that i am currently lying on the floor, surrounded by used kleenex and half-empty water bottles, eating salami out of the package with my fingers.
things are going really well at work, you guys. after the past two years and then basically my whole entire professional career before then, i still get confused and bewildered when people treat me nice at work, or listen to my opinions and credit them as important and worth paying attention to, or show me any kind of appreciation or recognition of my work and value.
today we switched to a new online survey service provider in large part because i’d suggested it. at no point did anyone at the company, where they’ve done surveys professionally for a long period of time, suggest that they knew better just as a matter of experience and longevity. they were genuinely interested to investigate this new service and when it did turn out to be better, they wanted to buy it. when higher ups got interested and excited about it, at no point did anyone take credit for the idea or information.
As early as the 13th century, reports the OED, verbs as well as nouns started taking on a y to “express the meaning ‘inclined or apt to’ do something, or ‘giving occasion to’ a certain action; … Chaucer has sleepy = soporific. In the 16th cent. arose choky, drowsy, slippy, sticky; later we find blowy, clingy, floaty, quavery, rollicky.”
So it’s a longtime thing. I’m convinced that we’re in the middle of another “prolific period,” in fact far more prolific than the sixteenth cent., in fact the most prolific one of all time. The nature of our current discourse—especially our online discourse—is such that a great premium is placed on saying things in new and unexpected ways, and also on saying things fast and shorthandy because, well, because cultural ADHD. Break down that great sentence “The neighborhoods get a lot less name-y in that part of Brooklyn.” It is saying something like, “In that part of Brooklyn, it’s often hard to tell precisely which neighborhood you are in at a given moment.” If anyone actually wrote, “In that part of Brooklyn, it’s often hard to tell precisely which neighborhood you are in at a given moment,” many if not most readers would be gone by the end of it, having left behind the dreaded abbreviation TLDR: too long, didn’t read.
i just realized that this week did not start off with a major, media-consuming event about how power exploits and hurts vulnerable groups of people. it’s not like the recent events - ray rice, holtzclaw, michael brown - have been resolved at all, much less satisfactorily, but it feels important that there’s not a new one added to the list.
The post is of course, predictably defensive, patronizing and awful. There’s really too much to parse, but here are some of my “favorite” highlights. And by favorite, I mean eye-roll inducing.
"Shame on you…. Colorlines, Race Forward & Aura Bogado. Click-baiting, Race-baiting, Homophobia, Minimizing Ferguson Residents, Trivializing Breast Cancer Awareness Efforts & Distorting Facts to Get Views & Donations."
Uh. What? This is rich, a FOR PROFIT COMPANY is accusing an anti-racism non-profit organization of race baiting for donations?! This from the company that has not once spoken about anti-racism until Ferguson (way genuine!), and their contribution is….t-shirts and a $5 donation. Let’s also not forget their usage of the sassy black woman stereotype to promote marriage equality in addition to really gross memes featuring Native Americans. Way to promote anti-racism folks!
"We’ve received literally thousands of racist comments, e-mails, phone messages and live-chat notes from racist white people in reaction to these Ferguson kids speaking out. If you like the N-word, you have to read our inbox.”
OMG ya’ll! They stood up for us black folk and now racist people are sending the n-word to their inbox!? This. Is. Unfathomable. I’d bet a day in their inbox is equal to a lifetime of actually being black. Now I feel TERRIBLE. Racism sucks ya’ll. Send those people a t-shirt. Stat!
ps. when dealing with racist hate mail, filters are your friends. I speak from experience ;)
"With all the hate from racists that has been directed at these kids and at us, one of the most troubling sources has been a blogger named Aura Bogado at Colorlines, a blog put out by an organization you’d expect to be an ally called Race Forward. The blogger continues to fabricate controversy by saying, “FCKH8.com, has made a name for itself selling what it calls ‘LGBT Equality Gear.’” We’re not sure if mocking “LGBT Equality Gear” by placing it in quotes as if it is not real and legitimate is simply old-fashioned underhanded homophobia and trivialization but it looks like it.”
In case you’re unclear, critique from the community you claim to support is on the same level as ACTUAL HATE SPEECH from racists. And using quotes when….quoting an organization’s slogan is “underhanded homophobia”. (sorry for the quotes, promise I’m not a homophobe) Got it!
"This video was our collective effort to make a statement out of grief and pain and turn it into something positive, that challenges people to face race and say, like the T-shirt says, “Racism Is Not Over. But I’m Over Racism.” Was the video director a white guy? Yes. He’s directed videos on social issues which have received millions of views and we’d prefer that the video and message from the participating Ferguson families and kids be judged on the content of its character and not the color of the skin of the director who pitched in to help make it.”
"Judged on the content of it’s character and not the color of the skin of the director" (FYI I’m using quotes because I’m quoting FCKH8, not because I’m homophobic)….Why does that sound familiar? Oh! I know! That’s a hat tip to MLK! Totally see what you did there. Love it when people drop the ONE line they know from that ONE MLK speech they know to show how progressive and not racist they are. And don’t worry, I’m not judging the kids who are unnamed or credited in the video, on your website or in the video description box. They’re adorable.
"Perhaps one of the most unsettling parts of this click-baiting blog post beside trivializing Ferguson kids, is the deliberate use of a screen grab of the only white person to appear in the entire video. This image is employed to misrepresent the heartfelt effort of 7 black cast members speaking out, a black producer, a black and Latino co-writer and a black editor. Is this race-baiting for attention? Out of a cast of 8 people, 7 of which are black, this photo seems to have been chosen with the devious intention to race-bait and drum up justified resentment of how many whites treat and marginalize blacks and other POCs, all to gain attention and be sensational. Using race in this way is disingenuous, offensive and reduces the voices of both the local children in front of the camera and the people behind the camera."
Wait. There were black people involved in this project!? Well that changes everything. As we all know, black people are a monolith, so if a few co-sign a project, then we all have to agree with it. Oh, and thanks for throwing in a photo of a black guy holding a sign to support FCKH8’s call for an apology. That really drives the point home. I suggest we talk about this at the next national monthly black people meeting and hug it out.
Lithium is a naturally occurring element, not a molecule like most medications, and it is present in the United States, depending on the geographic area, at concentrations that can range widely, from undetectable to around .170 milligrams per liter. This amount is less than a thousandth of the minimum daily dose given for bipolar disorders and for depression that doesn’t respond to antidepressants. Although it seems strange that the microscopic amounts of lithium found in groundwater could have any substantial medical impact, the more scientists look for such effects, the more they seem to discover. Evidence is slowly accumulating that relatively tiny doses of lithium can have beneficial effects. They appear to decrease suicide rates significantly and may even promote brain health and improve mood.
i had a long and stupid day so i wanted to make myself a treat for dinner, so i made potato hash with the CSA potatoes and i got some chicken sausage to add as a super special treat - and the sausage was spiced, or something, and the whole dinner tasted like a pumpkin spice latte and i am sad and angry.
we are talking about assessments today and people keep talking about the NWEA assessment, but they say it really fast, so it always sounds like the NWA assessment, and i cannot stop giggling. what would an NWA assessment look like? is it an assessment of NWA knowledge, or similarity to NWA, or … ?
i am at a major metro chamber of commerce and i just heard the most sterile conversation in the elevator. these people chatted for 3 minutes without exchanging any information or personal details. what was scarier - they did not use a single contraction. i think they were probably robots.
i overcame my afternoon malaise and went to the gym - which involved not only going to the gym but obtaining a gym membership - and then to the grocery store and now i am going to make salsa and do my nails so basically where is my ticker tape parade.
why do you need a new power cord for your ipad? what happened to the old one?
well it appears that my cat threw up a hairball on it, some weeks or months ago, and i ignored it entirely, and now i have attempted to clean it off, which was gross, but the metal is completely corroded and it no longer functions at all.
i did laundry like two days ago and it has been sitting, clean, in the hamper waiting to be put away since then. i keep putting it off on the principle of “UGH THAT WILL TAKE FOREVER WHAT A PAIN” and keep digging through it to find things and generally creating a mess and hassle for myself.
i finally had a stern talk with myself and forced myself to actually put the clothes away where they live in the closet.
i was talking to C while he is in quito - skype is the greatest - and we were reminiscing about the time he came to pick me up at the airport, during the time we were long distance, and it was near valentine’s day and he brought me an absolutely gigantic stuffed teddy bear, like this thing must be 4 feet tall and is exuberantly puffy. and i did not care for it, because giant teddy bears are not my thing and extravagant public displays of affection are not my thing.
so i was joking that i would bring the giant bear with me when i pick him up at the airport from south america next week, but then i went to look at it, and i thought about walking through the airport while carrying it, and nope. i just can’t do it.
what i had forgotten, and C reminded me of, is that when i came up the escalators in the terminal and saw him there with the bear, i started to roll my eyes, and then, C says, i pretended not to see him and walked the other way. he had to chase me with the bear.
there is actual, literal snow that has fallen and that continues to fall. not a lot, but we have crossed the snow threshold. (for those who asked: i’m in colorado, above 6,000 feet elevation. but that is not a good reason for this nonsense.)
a year ago, it started raining. it was nice at first, we can always use moisture and it cut the horrible heat wave we’d been having. but it kept raining, it rained quite a lot, it rained so much the power went out. and the next day, it rained harder, without stopping. estimates are that we got over 20 inches in about 24 hours. and all hell broke loose - the rivers and creeks were so swollen they swept away cars, people, houses, animals. we got constant text alerts to beware of the husks of cars being carried down rivers, slamming into trees, bridges, anything. and it still kept raining. my parents were trapped in their house, with water seeping into the garage. we were trapped in our house, with no power, no internet, nothing to keep us company except panic.
the marks of the flood are still everywhere and they will last for years to come. entire communities may never be rebuilt, may never again exist. we are still repairing the roads that crumbled when the sides of the hills and canyons simply caved in.
it is raining today. it rained yesterday. it is not a hard rain, it is not a consistent rain, but i still wish it would stop. this is an anniversary i would rather celebrate in the sun.
how can i apply the “make it stop” button at the top of the tumblr page to the influx of anonymous askbox messages splaining to me that older men are attracted to younger women because of BIOLOGY AND EVOLUTION, obviously and also to prevent DEFECTIVE BABIES. shut the entire fuck up and go away.
i’m hoping one of you knows something about this and can help me out. i am looking for a relatively easy way to share videos with someone in china, where youtube is blocked. the goal would be to upload a video here in the US and then have the person access and view it in china. (ideally without a lot of VPNs or complicated workarounds.) it would be best if the videos could be password protected or accessible only with the link or otherwise not just publicly posted.
thanks in advance for any assistance - i really appreciate it. any ideas or thoughts?
In discussions about the gender gap among tenured professors at research universities, there is little dispute that there are far more men than women with tenure in most disciplines. But why? Many have speculated that men are outperforming women in research, which is particularly valued over teaching and service at research universities. With women (of those with children) shouldering a disproportionate share of child care, the theory goes, they may not be able to keep up with publishing and research to the same extent as their male counterparts.
A study presented here Sunday at the annual meeting of the American Sociological Association finds that those assumptions may be untrue in some disciplines. The study compared tenure rates at research universities in computer science, English and sociology — and then controlled for research productivity.
Not only are men more likely than women to earn tenure, but in computer science and sociology, they are significantly more likely to earn tenure than are women who have the same research productivity. In English men are slightly (but not in a statistically significant way) more likely than women to earn tenure.